Bestfriend who became the Best Stranger (Final Part)

Our last conversation felt like an unfinished poem, I was searching for an answer. An answer to a question that I never asked. My life was changed and I was suffering from this change a lot. I wanted to move on, but I don’t know how to, and if I will feel the same every day, then I don’t know how will I survive.

I felt like a fish out of water. I miss the way he cared and worried for me, does the sky feels the same when it isn’t able to meet the sea? The feeling was increasing day by day, likewise while sleeping, the number of pillows was increasing, and along with that, his dreams were coming constantly. I had attacks while sleeping because what will be the worst that could happen to me? I can anyhow survive the light, but it was as hard as a rock to ride out the dark. But to escape reality, I try hard to sleep and to remain relaxed.

My mind was searching for that person and automatically thinking for that one conversation but I know in reality this was not going to happen. So gradually, I started doing so many things so that I can be busy. It’s good to keep on distracting yourself rather than controlling your emotions. Because controlling multiplies your emotion, and that leads to more harm.

I started accepting that it’s good to be alone rather than being with someone who doesn’t make you that happy. I haven’t forgotten that person, but I started accepting that person isn’t anymore in my life. So I also shouldn’t include in my memories and my dreams. Because sometimes we have to let go of what’s killing us, even if it’s killing us to let go. And once I read somewhere “When God shows you it’s time to let someone go and you refuse to accept it, he will allow the person to hurt you to the point you have no choice but to let go.” This inspired me more than I ever think because I let him hurt me.

But now it’s enough. Everyone has a chance to start with something new, so as I, and maybe a happy ending doesn’t include a guy, maybe it’s you, on your own picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for better in the future.