BEST FRIEND WHO BECAME THE BEST STRANGER (PART 2)

Love is a strange sort of madness, and I never felt this type of madness before. Though I wanted someone who loves me like anything and I found that person too. He is the person who knows all the secrets, he is the person who is there with you in all ups and downs. Now, I seriously feel glad because if I never shared him that, I like it when someone hugs me tightly and keeps on hugging me as if tomorrow doesn’t come and after listening to this when we met, he seriously hugged me! (This is shortly mentioned in Part 1) Because if we didn’t hug, it all never starts.

With him I always urge to try some new things, new adventures which I could never do with anyone else. I always used to tell him that, let’s go here, let’s go to that new place, we will have fun when it was all new he always used to ‘yes’ but after some time, he started refusing and in the end it was his decision whether to meet or not! Yes, because when people come close, after a certain period they feel like they are being bothered, they are being irritated by the one person. I was the only one who was always ready to meet because I loved spending time with him, but he felt that I’m being typical, I’m being over mad. Because I over love, maybe I felt for him more than he felt for me, maybe I was prioritizing him more.

As we were getting more close to each other day by day, our misunderstandings were increasing, and our fights were increasing. Rather I can say his insecurities were increasing more, he was becoming over possessed, he always wanted that I must not reply to him late and always be available for him. Though after all this we were there for each other, I was there for him, and he was there for me. I had become like that I would not be able to spend a day without him. I wanted him like anything because I made him my habit. My day started with him and night ended with him only. There was no one in between EXCEPT his insecurities, possessiveness, and ego. Before coming into the relationship I made some mistakes, but I apologized and promised that I won’t repeat anything, still that things used to come between us, and then we had a lot of quarrels. I’m a hell lot sensitive girl, if someone shouts or fights with me I start crying quickly because I couldn’t handle this at all. But then he also used to convince me over video calls that leave sorry, and after listening to all this I was easily convinced because after all I didn't know how to get angry with someone for so long and then we also used to start everything from new as if nothing had happened between us.

Despite that, by each passing day everything was messing up, according to him, I was the one who is responsible for all the things because I made the mistakes and he is the innocent who did nothing. Somewhat, I was feeling like I was the only one who is driving this relationship, putting all the efforts and from his side everything was falling apart. I was giving him more love than I was receiving in return. He was there then too I was missing him, I was missing the old him, the old ‘US’. Somewhere I knew that this isn’t working, that this is not what I wanted, that he is not the person who he used to be anymore. “Being in love isn’t a mood. It’s a commitment, even when you’re not in the mood for it.” For him, love became the mood and he started treating me according to his mood. So one day he woke up and he said that “he doesn’t love me anymore and he is leaving me” by saying this he left forever and was there full of tears can’t able to handle myself. I couldn’t believe that the person who promised me forever will leave me too. And seriously this time my heart was not broken but it is dead!